May 13, 2013

• I just realized that I hate our Hymn of the Month.  I hate the words of the chorus, completely and utterly.  The verse is SO the song of my heart, but the chorus?  It destroys the song.

  I am Thine, O Lord, and I’ve heard thy voice
  And it’s told Thy love to me…
  But I long to rise on the arms of faith
  And be closer drawn to Thee.

  Doesn’t that sound like me?  But then… THIS happens:

  Draw me nearer, nearer blessed Lord,
  To the cross where Thou has died.
  Draw me nearer, nearer, nearer blessed Lord
  To Thy precious bleeding side.

  What. The. Heck?!  I don’t want to go to the cross again.  Neither does He – it is Finished, damn it.  Isn’t it?  It’s a Catholic thing to keep Him nailed up on that cross – my Lord isn’t there, anymore, He arose.  And more than that, He’s not bleeding, either!  He already shed that blood for my sins, in a once-for-all act, no?  If it’s over, it’s finished, He’s come back and walked the earth and ASCENDED… I don’t want to go to that cross, I want to go to Him.  This whole thing smacks of a nasty mass-like thing that just turns my mouth all rancid.

  And the weird part?  We do our hymns after breakfast.  I was just sitting, reading a book, singing a totally different song when this realization hit me.  Sometimes?  Weird stuff happens, if you know what I mean.

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